I'm still grumpy beyond belief, so I assume I will be starting my period soon. It is the time for it anyway.
This morning, I woke up at 9:30am and decided I wanted another 15 minutes. I woke up an hour later and made my oatmeal breakfast. By the way, oatmeal pouches aren't as healthy as a bin of the regular/original oats. Don't add a lot of flavoring or sugar. That just negates the healthy.
Then I drank a bottle of water and went out for a walk/jog/walk. When I got home I drank one and a half more bottles of water.
Since then I've been sitting on my ass being annoyed at everyone and everything. I started my laundry too, so I guess that's good.
I'm a very grumpy individual right now.
Wednesday, May 23, 2012
Tuesday, May 22, 2012
May 22- A Ranting Update
I am not having a good day to say the least.
I woke up and was ready to start my day off right. I wanted a good breakfast, but I find that there is no milk and the toaster is broken. Instantly, I was put in a bad mood. I was getting all of my internet things done like I always do and people kept sending me things and I got way off track.
I did nothing for exercise. I started a few times but certain things just piss me off. Let's go through this more:
I wanted to watch my TV show and do some ab exercises, but the floor in the living room is repulsive. I was going to vacuum up, but my mom was taking a nap. Instantly annoyed and felt so trapped--AGAIN! Ugh. So, I decided I would go outside and run around in the yard. Turns out, my idiot brother hasn't mowed the lawn. I cannot deal with his laziness. It just makes me really really angry. He is a free-loader, for sure. I know, I'm old enough to move out and all that too, but unlike my brother, I go to school full-time and I help around the house. It really does annoy me how my brother seems to ruin everything. Seriously, everything.
Anyway. I got so annoyed outside. I came inside and told my mom that she needs to tell my brother to mow the lawn. I do that a lot; tell my parents what they need to do. She either didn't tell him, or he ignored her. So I might just do that tomorrow myself, even though I've never mowed the lawn. It can't be too hard, right? We had a decent sized yard, so it should be a good work out.
Also while I was outside, there is this stray cat my mom feeds (in bowls that I bought for the house) and she (the cat) would not leave me alone. So I dumped out her food and water bowls, took them inside and washed them. I told my mom she is NOT allowed to use MY bowls for the animals anymore. I also took the bowl we've been using for our inside cats and used a different dish for them. My parents can buy them real pet dishes. They can get them from the Dollar Tree for $1, so they should do that instead of ruining the bowls that I bought for the house. I'm tired of having to wash the bowl I used for breakfast so I can have one for lunch. It is ridiculous. Let's not even mention how more than half of the dishes I've bought are missing - oops, I mentioned it.
I did some dishes and started dinner. The stove top isn't working properly for some reason. Our landlords need to buy a new stove. I wish we could use the stove we own! It is just getting ruined in the garage. My brother (useless, isn't he?) put it in a spot that leaked - so it's been getting soaked when it rains. Great. The reason we don't have it in the kitchen is... it doesn't fit. Our kitchen is crazy small and the oven door would literally not open if we were to install it.
I'm ranting, and I don't care!
So I'm trying to make dinner with one working burner. Awesome. I am still in the process of cooking dinner as I type.
I sometimes feel like I cannot do this. I cannot lose any weight. I'm way too stressed out from every day life to add this stress too. Then I remember how I just need to kick myself in the ass and do it. This is for ME. Everyone else is second. I come first.
Maybe after dinner I'll take a long walk - even though I hate walking by myself. I also hate walking with other people. I want to go at MY pace, ya know?
I feel like the world is against me and I just want to punch the world in the face, until the message is clear: I'm going to do this.
Sweat. Blood. Tears. Just do it.
I woke up and was ready to start my day off right. I wanted a good breakfast, but I find that there is no milk and the toaster is broken. Instantly, I was put in a bad mood. I was getting all of my internet things done like I always do and people kept sending me things and I got way off track.
I did nothing for exercise. I started a few times but certain things just piss me off. Let's go through this more:
I wanted to watch my TV show and do some ab exercises, but the floor in the living room is repulsive. I was going to vacuum up, but my mom was taking a nap. Instantly annoyed and felt so trapped--AGAIN! Ugh. So, I decided I would go outside and run around in the yard. Turns out, my idiot brother hasn't mowed the lawn. I cannot deal with his laziness. It just makes me really really angry. He is a free-loader, for sure. I know, I'm old enough to move out and all that too, but unlike my brother, I go to school full-time and I help around the house. It really does annoy me how my brother seems to ruin everything. Seriously, everything.
Anyway. I got so annoyed outside. I came inside and told my mom that she needs to tell my brother to mow the lawn. I do that a lot; tell my parents what they need to do. She either didn't tell him, or he ignored her. So I might just do that tomorrow myself, even though I've never mowed the lawn. It can't be too hard, right? We had a decent sized yard, so it should be a good work out.
Also while I was outside, there is this stray cat my mom feeds (in bowls that I bought for the house) and she (the cat) would not leave me alone. So I dumped out her food and water bowls, took them inside and washed them. I told my mom she is NOT allowed to use MY bowls for the animals anymore. I also took the bowl we've been using for our inside cats and used a different dish for them. My parents can buy them real pet dishes. They can get them from the Dollar Tree for $1, so they should do that instead of ruining the bowls that I bought for the house. I'm tired of having to wash the bowl I used for breakfast so I can have one for lunch. It is ridiculous. Let's not even mention how more than half of the dishes I've bought are missing - oops, I mentioned it.
I did some dishes and started dinner. The stove top isn't working properly for some reason. Our landlords need to buy a new stove. I wish we could use the stove we own! It is just getting ruined in the garage. My brother (useless, isn't he?) put it in a spot that leaked - so it's been getting soaked when it rains. Great. The reason we don't have it in the kitchen is... it doesn't fit. Our kitchen is crazy small and the oven door would literally not open if we were to install it.
I'm ranting, and I don't care!
So I'm trying to make dinner with one working burner. Awesome. I am still in the process of cooking dinner as I type.
I sometimes feel like I cannot do this. I cannot lose any weight. I'm way too stressed out from every day life to add this stress too. Then I remember how I just need to kick myself in the ass and do it. This is for ME. Everyone else is second. I come first.
Maybe after dinner I'll take a long walk - even though I hate walking by myself. I also hate walking with other people. I want to go at MY pace, ya know?
I feel like the world is against me and I just want to punch the world in the face, until the message is clear: I'm going to do this.
Sweat. Blood. Tears. Just do it.
Monday, May 21, 2012
Activities for May 20-21
So what did I eat and drink yesterday?
- One bowl of cereal
- One chicken nuggets/corn/mac n cheese Banquet meal
- 10 Tyson chicken tenders
- Ice cream
- A lot of water
So I do believe I was very much into chicken yesterday. I had a decent work out yesterday and I was craving the ice cream so I just ate it!
What did I do in my workout?
- Shake Weight
- Raked lawn clippings in 85F heat
- Step-ups on the stairs (I don't know what they're actually called... I just named them that)
After typing out that list, I feel like it wasn't as decent as I felt my workout was. This makes me rather sad. I'll do better today, I just promised myself. I suppose I felt it was better than it actually was because I was sweating a lot.
So far today I've eaten cereal again for breakfast, and another banquet meal. I didn't do the Shake Weight this morning because I decided it should be an every other day event. I plan on doing more step-ups. Then who knows. It is hot in the house and I don't want to over heat.
Edit:
I changed the title from "Activities for May 20th" to the current.
For dinner we are having a lemon garlic pork loin accompanied by a garlic and herb rice dish. So much yum. There will also be peas, which are one of my very favorite vegetables (following green beans, of course).
Even though I made that promise to myself to do a better job with my workout today, I just feel not very good at all. I probably won't be doing any exercise this horrible day. Lately I have been not feeling my best, so I hope I get this over with and start feeling great. Maybe if it continues I'll just make myself work through it all. Wish me luck.
- One bowl of cereal
- One chicken nuggets/corn/mac n cheese Banquet meal
- 10 Tyson chicken tenders
- Ice cream
- A lot of water
So I do believe I was very much into chicken yesterday. I had a decent work out yesterday and I was craving the ice cream so I just ate it!
What did I do in my workout?
- Shake Weight
- Raked lawn clippings in 85F heat
- Step-ups on the stairs (I don't know what they're actually called... I just named them that)
After typing out that list, I feel like it wasn't as decent as I felt my workout was. This makes me rather sad. I'll do better today, I just promised myself. I suppose I felt it was better than it actually was because I was sweating a lot.
So far today I've eaten cereal again for breakfast, and another banquet meal. I didn't do the Shake Weight this morning because I decided it should be an every other day event. I plan on doing more step-ups. Then who knows. It is hot in the house and I don't want to over heat.
Edit:
I changed the title from "Activities for May 20th" to the current.
For dinner we are having a lemon garlic pork loin accompanied by a garlic and herb rice dish. So much yum. There will also be peas, which are one of my very favorite vegetables (following green beans, of course).
Even though I made that promise to myself to do a better job with my workout today, I just feel not very good at all. I probably won't be doing any exercise this horrible day. Lately I have been not feeling my best, so I hope I get this over with and start feeling great. Maybe if it continues I'll just make myself work through it all. Wish me luck.
Sunday, May 20, 2012
Hydration
For a while now I've been boycotting pop (soda). I just stopped liking the carbonation. I don't see this as a bad thing, because obviously pop isn't the best thing for anyone to be drinking.
When I first stopped drinking pop, over a year ago, I had what my mom calls "caffeine headaches". Basically, withdrawals. I didn't mind so much because I got to sleep off these headaches. I do enjoy sleep (that, is not such a good thing).
Things got better! Unlike a lot of people, I didn't drink a lot of juice and flavored waters. I hate those! So much acid in the juice for me! I'm way too worried about my teeth to drink a lot of juice. Any type of flavored water made my mouth feel dry, which just made me thirstier. I went all out and I drink straight up water. I really do quite enjoy water more than any other drink. I do not understand how people can say that they don't like the taste of water. That makes no sense at all! It's pure and wonderfully cleansing. Although, certain bottled waters do taste revolting. I purify my water at home.
I do not know how much water I drink a day, but it is a lot. Which, consequently, means that I pee an awful lot. I don't mind it though. I feel good about that one decision.
I'm jealous of those who cut pop out of their diets and lose weight. I never lost weight from not drinking pop. I think perhaps I drink too much water, if that is possible.
Anyway, staying hydrated is a major part of exercise and weight loss. You need to keep your body hydrated! If you're losing water, put it back in. I'm somewhat addicted to buying water bottles (along with lip balm). I recently went through my collection and trashed all but one. I may go on a shopping spree and purchase a few more... I love water and so should everyone else.
When I first stopped drinking pop, over a year ago, I had what my mom calls "caffeine headaches". Basically, withdrawals. I didn't mind so much because I got to sleep off these headaches. I do enjoy sleep (that, is not such a good thing).
Things got better! Unlike a lot of people, I didn't drink a lot of juice and flavored waters. I hate those! So much acid in the juice for me! I'm way too worried about my teeth to drink a lot of juice. Any type of flavored water made my mouth feel dry, which just made me thirstier. I went all out and I drink straight up water. I really do quite enjoy water more than any other drink. I do not understand how people can say that they don't like the taste of water. That makes no sense at all! It's pure and wonderfully cleansing. Although, certain bottled waters do taste revolting. I purify my water at home.
I do not know how much water I drink a day, but it is a lot. Which, consequently, means that I pee an awful lot. I don't mind it though. I feel good about that one decision.
I'm jealous of those who cut pop out of their diets and lose weight. I never lost weight from not drinking pop. I think perhaps I drink too much water, if that is possible.
Anyway, staying hydrated is a major part of exercise and weight loss. You need to keep your body hydrated! If you're losing water, put it back in. I'm somewhat addicted to buying water bottles (along with lip balm). I recently went through my collection and trashed all but one. I may go on a shopping spree and purchase a few more... I love water and so should everyone else.
Looking Ahead
Let's take a look at some activities I'll be involved in in the upcoming months:
In June, my boyfriend and I (along with other members of his family) are going to Cedar Point (if you don't know, it is an amazing amusement park)! Woo! We went last year, just the boyfriend and myself, and I was so very self-conscious of my weight because there were a lot of rides I wasn't able to ride. Mostly because I wouldn't fit in the stupid seat and there are weight limits that I looked up on the website. It is the end of May and June is obviously coming up really soon! I want to lose somewhere between 10-20lbs before our trip to Cedar Point. I'll feel better about myself, even if I still can't ride a few of the rides. I'm not looking forward to how hot it will be - I'll be sweating something fierce (which could be a good thing because I'll lose weight, but bad because heat stroke probably sucks)!
I am the Maid of Honor in my sister's wedding. That is during the first week of August. I already have my dress and it does currently fit and it doesn't look bad (meaning I don't look very blimp-like). Of course, I want to lose a good amount of weight by August (I know, it's close!) to look even better in the dress. Shake Weight is a must because my arms look bad and I've just always hated them. It'd also be nice to be able to wear a bra with it. Right now my boobs are too big to accommodate a bra under the fabric.
My boyfriend's cousin is getting married in July and I'm my boyfriends "plus one". I'm wearing my Maid of Honor dress. It is my little black dress now and I'm going to use it whenever I get the chance! It really is a cute dress.
Starting in June, I will have a babysitting job. It won't be too hard because the little girl I'm babysitting is my boyfriend's little sister. I know the girl, house, dog, and almost everything I'd need to know! She already likes me, so we're golden! I just want to have some weight off before I start because I'll need to be able to keep up with her when we play outside. She keeps asking if I want to go on her trampoline. I do, but I don't. I haven't been on a trampoline since I was in Elementary school!
I'm noticing that now that I am conscious of my weight, everything I do makes my weight become a factor for whether or not I'll be able to do it. I don't like that at all. I want to just do whatever the hell I want to do whenever I want to do it! Especially the fun stuff. I don't want to have to be conscious of my weight, I just want to be able to have fun. And I will.
In June, my boyfriend and I (along with other members of his family) are going to Cedar Point (if you don't know, it is an amazing amusement park)! Woo! We went last year, just the boyfriend and myself, and I was so very self-conscious of my weight because there were a lot of rides I wasn't able to ride. Mostly because I wouldn't fit in the stupid seat and there are weight limits that I looked up on the website. It is the end of May and June is obviously coming up really soon! I want to lose somewhere between 10-20lbs before our trip to Cedar Point. I'll feel better about myself, even if I still can't ride a few of the rides. I'm not looking forward to how hot it will be - I'll be sweating something fierce (which could be a good thing because I'll lose weight, but bad because heat stroke probably sucks)!
I am the Maid of Honor in my sister's wedding. That is during the first week of August. I already have my dress and it does currently fit and it doesn't look bad (meaning I don't look very blimp-like). Of course, I want to lose a good amount of weight by August (I know, it's close!) to look even better in the dress. Shake Weight is a must because my arms look bad and I've just always hated them. It'd also be nice to be able to wear a bra with it. Right now my boobs are too big to accommodate a bra under the fabric.
My boyfriend's cousin is getting married in July and I'm my boyfriends "plus one". I'm wearing my Maid of Honor dress. It is my little black dress now and I'm going to use it whenever I get the chance! It really is a cute dress.
Starting in June, I will have a babysitting job. It won't be too hard because the little girl I'm babysitting is my boyfriend's little sister. I know the girl, house, dog, and almost everything I'd need to know! She already likes me, so we're golden! I just want to have some weight off before I start because I'll need to be able to keep up with her when we play outside. She keeps asking if I want to go on her trampoline. I do, but I don't. I haven't been on a trampoline since I was in Elementary school!
I'm noticing that now that I am conscious of my weight, everything I do makes my weight become a factor for whether or not I'll be able to do it. I don't like that at all. I want to just do whatever the hell I want to do whenever I want to do it! Especially the fun stuff. I don't want to have to be conscious of my weight, I just want to be able to have fun. And I will.
Saturday, May 19, 2012
Cheating
Feeling guilty about cheating on a diet isn't something I worry much about.
I have cheat days. A day in the week (it could be biweekly or even monthly) when I allow myself to either eat one super unhealthy thing, or snack all day.
These types of days are rather important for someone on a diet, in my opinion, anyway. When you are craving something hardcore, you just wont be satisfied no matter what you eat until you get whatever it is you've been craving. Thus, you need to cheat in order to stay mentally able to continue your dieting. I also believe it is good to treat yourself while you are dieting. Especially if you've been doing well!
Rewards make everything better. You could say that the reward of healthier living is enough, but I don't completely agree! Of course, healthy living is indeed a great reward, but so is a cookie.
I have cheat days. A day in the week (it could be biweekly or even monthly) when I allow myself to either eat one super unhealthy thing, or snack all day.
These types of days are rather important for someone on a diet, in my opinion, anyway. When you are craving something hardcore, you just wont be satisfied no matter what you eat until you get whatever it is you've been craving. Thus, you need to cheat in order to stay mentally able to continue your dieting. I also believe it is good to treat yourself while you are dieting. Especially if you've been doing well!
Rewards make everything better. You could say that the reward of healthier living is enough, but I don't completely agree! Of course, healthy living is indeed a great reward, but so is a cookie.
Friday, May 18, 2012
What Am I Doing?
Hi there. I decided to do a blog about my weight loss journey. I was on YouTube but I'm bored with YouTube and doing a blog entry takes way less time, plus I prefer blogs to vlogs!
So what am I doing? I'm losing weight. Trying my best to anyway!
I've been overweight for as long as I can remember and it only ever bothered me occasionally. I didn't dislike myself except sometimes at school in gym class or maybe recess. Even then I didn't care too much. Then High School came around and I started to care a little bit more about my body image. It wasn't until my Senior Year that I even tried to do anything about my weight, but I was too busy to do much about it and my weight still didn't bother me much.
That summer though, my friend and I were doing some dieting things and then when we were at university we worked out a few times at the gym. We ended up not having a lot of time for our work outs...
This year, I started to do more serious weight lossing (that's not a word). After a couple of months, I realized it was too hard to concentrate on both weight loss and my schooling. I made the decision to wait for Summer. It has been a month since my last exam and yet I've not made any progress. I've been crazy lazy.
I've been reading in bed a lot, which is not a bad thing but now I'm moving that activity to before I go to sleep, that way I'm not wasting time.
I own a Shake Weight and the goal with that is to make my flabby arms be less flabby and stronger. I plan to to my 6-minute Shake Weight routine (it comes with a DVD) in the morning, just to get it out of the way.
There is a video on YouTube that I had saved that is a pretty good workout (mostly abs and legs) and I'll be taking some of the exercises from it to do on a daily basis. Along with those exercises, I'll add in some that I learned in my weightlifting class in High School.
I have been pretty good about going for long walks, but I could/should be jogging (I don't like to jog because, honestly, my boobs bounce around too much).
Dieting is pretty easy seeing as I like the healthier foods! My mom is counting calories, and maybe I'll do that too.
Following will be a rough schedule of my days that I created:
I didn't put in times or meals because I have yet to get into a routine of when I wake up. I probably should start because it is always healthy to have a routine! I haven't decided if I should eat before or after I start any of the work out routines.
I know that eating breakfast is a good way to start the day and boost that metabolism, but I just really do not ever feel like eating when I wake up. I have to force down just toast. We have a lot of oatmeal so perhaps I'll start my day out right with some Quaker Oats!
I'm rather confused on everything I should do and when I should do it but I'm just going to jump into it.
My list isn't in a good order, I don't think. I think maybe I'll go for jogs in the morning. It just seems like a good idea to me - it wont be as hot!
My thoughts in this entry are rather jumbled, but that's alright.
Future entries will include what I have done all day, including what I've consumed.
Suggestions are always appreciated!
So what am I doing? I'm losing weight. Trying my best to anyway!
I've been overweight for as long as I can remember and it only ever bothered me occasionally. I didn't dislike myself except sometimes at school in gym class or maybe recess. Even then I didn't care too much. Then High School came around and I started to care a little bit more about my body image. It wasn't until my Senior Year that I even tried to do anything about my weight, but I was too busy to do much about it and my weight still didn't bother me much.
That summer though, my friend and I were doing some dieting things and then when we were at university we worked out a few times at the gym. We ended up not having a lot of time for our work outs...
This year, I started to do more serious weight lossing (that's not a word). After a couple of months, I realized it was too hard to concentrate on both weight loss and my schooling. I made the decision to wait for Summer. It has been a month since my last exam and yet I've not made any progress. I've been crazy lazy.
I've been reading in bed a lot, which is not a bad thing but now I'm moving that activity to before I go to sleep, that way I'm not wasting time.
I own a Shake Weight and the goal with that is to make my flabby arms be less flabby and stronger. I plan to to my 6-minute Shake Weight routine (it comes with a DVD) in the morning, just to get it out of the way.
There is a video on YouTube that I had saved that is a pretty good workout (mostly abs and legs) and I'll be taking some of the exercises from it to do on a daily basis. Along with those exercises, I'll add in some that I learned in my weightlifting class in High School.
I have been pretty good about going for long walks, but I could/should be jogging (I don't like to jog because, honestly, my boobs bounce around too much).
Dieting is pretty easy seeing as I like the healthier foods! My mom is counting calories, and maybe I'll do that too.
Following will be a rough schedule of my days that I created:
- Feed pets (repeat after lunch)
- Morning Hygiene
- Shake Weight
- Core
- Cardio
I didn't put in times or meals because I have yet to get into a routine of when I wake up. I probably should start because it is always healthy to have a routine! I haven't decided if I should eat before or after I start any of the work out routines.
I know that eating breakfast is a good way to start the day and boost that metabolism, but I just really do not ever feel like eating when I wake up. I have to force down just toast. We have a lot of oatmeal so perhaps I'll start my day out right with some Quaker Oats!
I'm rather confused on everything I should do and when I should do it but I'm just going to jump into it.
My list isn't in a good order, I don't think. I think maybe I'll go for jogs in the morning. It just seems like a good idea to me - it wont be as hot!
My thoughts in this entry are rather jumbled, but that's alright.
Future entries will include what I have done all day, including what I've consumed.
Suggestions are always appreciated!
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